Dear Pierre,
That talk
about great greatness and how some exceptional people were able to make
their name last in history can really
shape your mind as a teenager.
I remember when
I first read about the life of Jean-Jacque Rousseau, at that time I really didn’t
know anything about life but that book and the way that man lived his life
affected me so much.
He was one
of the greatest thinkers off all time, his ideas and work helped shape the
world and its societies and his name lasted for centuries but what I fell in
love with the most was the bravery he had to make the choices he made, how he
sacrificed his happiness and well being for the sake of a greater purpose.
So as the
dreamy girl that I am I believed so much that this was the kind of life that I
would love to have, that It really doesn’t matter whether I’m happy or lonely
as long as I could be another one who changed the world, I admired that quote
that said “pain is the best teacher, but no one wants to be his student” I believed
so much that I’m going to be that student, that I’m so ready for it , because
of course anything to learn from the best of teachers.
But as I
look back to it now, the somewhat adult me likes to see how extreme that was, I
mean that’s what adulthood is for: “ rationalizing everything”; and happiness
isn’t really so bad after all especially once you really get to know the difference
between it and misery. Which also takes my attention to those who chose their
loved ones over power and settled for peace and value, who maybe could only
change one small life and will probably never be able to reach the international
level of greatness, aren’t they great in their own little world ?
I’m not
sure whether I was too dreamy or I’m too afraid now but between this and that
and like most things in life I would like to believe that what I aspire to be
is now somewhere in the middle of it all.
Till we
meet again my dear Pierre, please take good care of yourself !
Marie.
